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Even my sim is reading.<\/em><\/p>\n I have a stack of entries of a religious \/ spiritual nature lying on my draft list. I think they can stay there, at least for the time being. And the time being is always all we have, so no promises.<\/p>\n After I joined Goodreads (a social network for book lovers, I guess) I have shifted to input mode, it feels. Although I have also been writing reviews (and that takes a lot of time, surprisingly) I have also been reading more than before. I used to read on the commute, but these days I am even reading at home! Imagine that. Actually the reading I do at home is rereading, either before or after reviewing a book. But the effect is the same. I am reading instead of writing.<\/p>\n But it is not just a matter of time, as “I spend so much time reading, I don’t have time to write.” That is not literally true. I had enough time to write if I really wanted to. \u00c2\u00a0But I am kind of stuck in this input mode. It does not feel natural to suddenly shift to writing.<\/p>\n That is strange, because usually the easiest way for me to start writing was to read a short passage of a spiritual book of high level but below actual Holy Scripture. I would then automatically begin to expand the message as it came alive inside me, and easily have a full entry based on a paragraph or two. After all, their light is more concentrated than mine, as I have mentioned before.<\/p>\n But now that does not feel right, right now. Perhaps it is just that I am stuck in input mode. Or perhaps it is a dawning realization that I am not worthy. I mean, I already know that. I try to not pass myself off as a spiritual teacher, but rather a kind of tourist reporting the sights and sounds of this exciting world of the higher reality. But even so, I am kind of feeling the weight of my inferiority when I compare myself to a true saint like St Teresa or John of the Cross. They really are that high, high above me.<\/p>\n Of course, I already feel pretty remote from most of mankind for the opposite reason, if only in the matter of theoretical understanding. I have seen so much, and yet done so little. And so I feel the need for input more than for output, right now. Usually this doesn’t last, though. Perhaps it should, but usually it doesn’t.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" More reading, less writing, is my current trend. Continue reading