Work

My job is not secret in the “secret agent” sense, but we are asked to not tell on the Internet where we work, or use the work computers to post on the Internet. As if I would! Even my father and my brothers don’t know exactly where I work.

(Yes, you guys who like to post on social sites from work: All large workplaces have their own IP addresses, so the admins (at the very least) can trace back to see where you post from. And the network admin at your workplace can see what you are doing with their computer network as well.)

Anyway, when I talk about work, it will only be in the most generic sense. And in the generic sense, I just the other day asked my boss to find more work for me. I have held only 90% work hours for about a decade now, but even then I have felt that there is little suitable work.  I can physically not speak more than a few minutes a day, so that excludes working phone support.  (We do generally give various IT related support to a large organization.) I cannot travel easily, either. So that limits what I can do somewhat.  My boss is however confident that she can find more work for me without inventing anything unnecessary. In other words, I want to work more so others can go home with a good conscience, rather than having to sit an hour or two extra each day.

So starting May, I will try to work full hours. Obviously it also pays a little more, but that is not my motivation. Despite the high rent, I am doing well enough. And I don’t expect 10%, reduced with around 1/3 in tax, to noticeably affect my budget. I guess if a man can buy a new smartphone every year and a half, he is pretty well off by global standards.  Of course, here in the zeroeth world, people are constantly driven by raging desires for things that cost money. I keep getting amazed and amused by the things people think they need, and the self-made desperation by which they seek what is actually mere luxury.

The reason why I want to work more is that work is love. Not having an ordinary family life, work is my main way of giving back my love to the world, the society and the civilization without which I could not even today survive for long, and on which I was a parasite for so long.  Almost everything I am, is in some way a gift from other people. Even the words with which we think are formed by poets and farmers and mothers singing to their children (and occasionally by carpenters when they hit their thumb) over thousands of years.

Even in the unlikely case that I should manage to pay off my debt to the world in my lifetime, I should still try to help people, because it is the right thing to do. Never mind that giving happiness to others is the fastest way to become happy ourselves. I am usually happy already.

I would definitely work even if I got the same pay without it. Well, unless I could find a more effective way to help people. But I am not gifted with social skills, so having other people find ways for me to help is not only easier, it is probably more effective.

Here in Norway, there are actually people who could get MORE money if they did not work.  The unemployment and disability pensions are so generous to people with children, that if they take a low-paying job, they will have less money for their family. And some of them still take the job. Now that is worthy of respect. Although their kids may think differently.

3 thoughts on “Work

    • Yes, but not randomly or for fun or because he wanted to. These were things he did on behalf of God, and each of them had a symbolic meaning.

      Generally, in order to see miracles happen, one needs to expand love to include a great number of people. It is a kind of gradual process, I would say, where increasingly more unlikely coincidences start piling up, until it in rare cases reaches the “impossible” level.

      The various New Age ideas for letting the ego perform miracles on behalf of its own little greed? Snake oil. Sure you can have a stroke of luck, but that is not what I am talking about. The universe was created from God’s overflowing love, and will recognize that power again if you have it. But this is not really something you or I need to know much about, since we are not in that league.

  1. One of the things that I used to struggle with when I still wanted Christ’s miracles to be scientifically feasible was how convolutedly I had to twist and turn in order to somehow end up with some (usually fairly unsatisfactory) way that such-and-such COULD have happened. Now I simply don’t care. I choose to believe it. Every day. And am grateful. Because I choose to be grateful. Not out of delusion, not out of stupidity, simply because it is a choice and I have the right to make it for myself.

    Magnus, you explain it very well. I could never write the arguments you do, because (and this is totally unnatural for me, therefore it is a great act of faith on my part) I do not require God to be verbalized. I like it when I read it, and it’s neat to think, “Yeah! He gets it! That’s what I think, too!” But it doesn’t change my faith. Faith is in the gut, the heart AND the brain. The brain is nothing so special. And sometimes, on good days, it’s even in every cell, possibly every molecule! But that’s just me. YMMV.

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